It's official.  I have lived in this godforsaken apartment longer than I've lived anywhere else in the last six years.  And I have unfortunately discovered that the constant relocation has become an addiction for me.  This apartment is where I've experienced the worst living conditions in my life, so that doesn't help.  But about six months ago, I felt the urge to move.  The urge has festered and multiplied and now I am dying to get out of here.  There is no end in sight, though.  Not till we are due to move off of the island, which is another year and a half away.

I love Okinawa and I'm not done experiencing this country, culture and island, but I'd happily receive new orders to send us somewhere else just to get out of this apartment and preferably into a house with a yard and my cat and a good five feet or more in between us and our neighbors.

I'm also feeling bitter about the specifics of military life in Okinawa - the lack of American shopping, the censorship of our TV and movies, the limitations of Naval medicine...  Very upsetting.

Obviously, today I'm just feeling bitter about it all.

Cadence has Pneumonia.  It is so disturbing to hear such a big cough come out of such a little body.  She's a trooper but this is hard for her, to say the least.

Today I feel like the candy man.  First of all I have way more fruity flavored medicine than I know what to do with and I am having to force it into her at intervals all day long...  And then I'm so distraught about her lack of ability to eat or drink that it's like...  What'll it be?  Pudding?  Peaches?  Peanut butter?  Chips?  Cake?  Ice cream?  You can have ANYTHING YOU WANT!!  Just get some calories in you, baby!

As I type, she is sitting next to me at the table, having her first "meal" in days - fried pinwheels and Pedialyte mostly, but I did make her a nice little pile of white rice topped with some Goldfish crackers.  And the ice cream is on standby for later on.

This blows.