I have decided that I need this necklace. Not "want". Need. Somebody please tell Mark.

Okay, now that I've gotten that out of the way, I'd like to point out that I've been doing a lot of.. Well, nothing. Nothing at all. I've mostly been a big bump on a log. It's been raining here and cloudy here since Saturday night. I am welcoming this change in the weather. Anything is better than the incessant heat of Texas. So we've been holed up in the house for the most part. Late last night, after we'd put Amaris to bed, Mark and I stayed up and made Rice Krispy treats. Which may seem silly and trivial to most, but for me it was fun and time spent together without the TV on. And let's face it - I'll take what I can get.

I still have no idea what is going on. I don't know when I'll know, either. Just a hurry up and wait game. I'm not enjoying it. It's stressing me out. We are upside-down on our car loan, so the fact that we'll have to sell the car soon leaves me in a panic-state. I don't know how we'll manage to sell the car. We're going to have to take out a loan to do it. That's pathetic. I wish I could just call the bank and say, "Listen, I wouldn't be ditching the car - even though you completely ripped us off on it when we bought it - but we're moving to Japan on military orders. I need to unload it and nobody will buy a 2003 Honda with 100k miles on it for the amount that is left on our loan. You know, the one that you overcharged me on from the get-go. I need to get rid of it soon. How about I make payments on it through October and then I just give it back to you and we call it even?" I don't think that American Honda Finance would find that a reasonable offer, though, and I don't want to damage my credit. So poop. I know that eventually, this will all somehow work itself out. But for now I am in a hard place. And I just keep thinking to myself that I should have never traded in the Scion. Things would be so much easier now if I was still driving that around. It'd be almost paid off, and we'd be on top. As it stands with the CR-V, I've got a good, oh, 4 years or so to go until it's paid off. Nice, huh?

Anyways. I should stop stressing about things I can't fix. At least I can't fix them immediately. I need to just get a grip.

I'm all over the place today. My house is a mess, I really want a toridon bowl from Mika's in Fresno, and diamond honey roasted almonds are delicious. Oh, and Amaris would really like to try out those skates. I'm waiting for the rain to pass. She keeps putting them on and walking around the house in them. Picture her in a t-shirt and diaper with the skates. It's ridiculous.